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Shooting “Hopped Up” with The Pagans!

pagans1I recently worked on a music video for punk rock band “The Pagans.” Who are The Pagans? A group of heathen punk rock boys who hailed from Cleveland, Ohio in the early 80’s. Today, The Pagans are still around but the only remaining member from the original band is the lead singer- Mike Hudson.

The newer band members include Justin ‘Lizard Tongue’ Lack on drums, Johnny ‘Babyface’ Dzubak on guitar, Eric Michael ‘Ponyboy’ Schrader on bass and Ben ‘Womanizer’ Reagan on guitar. Fun fact: Richard Duguay, who played guitar on Guns N’ Roses’ “Spaghetti Incident” album, is featured playing lead guitar on The Pagans recording “Hopped Up,” which is the song you are about to hear.

thedramaSo anyway while we’re talking about the newer band members, you should know that Schrader and Dzubak also play in another band together called “The Drama,” which is a moody rock band based out of Hollywood, CA. They are a really fun band to see live, because the lead singer Ashley pulls theatrical surprises including a possible ‘Jim Morrison flash.’ And since we’re talking about Eric Michael Schrader, you should also know that he Directed the music video I am getting ready to talk about!

The music video you are about to see is for The Pagans song “Hopped Up.” We shot it on location at The Art Of Charm School in Hollywood, CA. Schrader along with Kevin T. Miller did the bulk of the shooting. I shot some of the rooftop band performance scenes, did the casting and played the epitome of a groupie coke whore. Check out our other videos on The Enclave Hollywood page

I’d like to give a special thanks to team Clay Coker and Noelle Poulson for doing a fantastic job creating a rock n’ roll ‘night haze’ for the rooftop performance scene. And you know what, a big thanks to everyone who had a hand in working on this video. It couldn’t have been done without you! 🙂

The whole band is featured in the video along with lovely actresses Noelle Poulson, Suzy Williams and Annee Elizabeth. We also got handsome actors Clay Coker and Eric Bakey for the video as well.

Mike Hudson best describes “Hopped Up” as, “A song about a group of people, and one guy in particular, who are just pretty much out of control.” I say it’s, “Where a cool Hollywood band and fame whores unite!” Check it out:

My Little G.I. Joe

mylittleponyheemanIn this year of 2015, there has been so much education distributed among media outlets regarding gender. Many of us have learned that gender is more unique and not as black and white as we once thought. We have an understanding, thanks to stars like Bruce Jenner and Laverne Cox, that some people feel like the opposite sex inside so they make the outside match the inside. I personally just learned that every person who is inside their mama- is firstly a female, but then at some point they either become a male, stay female or become a hermaphrodite (I believe this is the term for displaying both female and male organs). Anyway, this is why men have nipples like women!

I read this story the other day about this clothing company having a line in the works that is gender neutral. That means that the whole pink for girls and blue for boys theory is out the window. I think that’s cool especially if you are shopping for an expecting Mother that has not revealed the sex of her baby. Trying to find some outfit or blankey that’s ‘in between’ the 2 colors is always a challenge. Also, kids who actually get to make decisions of what they get to wear, may not want those obvious pink dresses or blue pants. Maybe these new age clothing lines will have pink pants and blue dresses instead! See what I mean?

For me and my fellow millennials- most of us probably lost out on opportunities like the ones that youth have today. Now, everyone can feel more comfortable or supported if they decide to cross the gender boundaries that have been implemented into society.

After gathering all of this information, I started questioning myself recently. Who would I have naturally become if media, society or people hadn’t pushed me in the direction of their agendas? What if YOU were able to make all of your own decisions from childhood without being swayed by others along the way? What if I was robbed the opportunity to play with G.I. Joes, because I was told that Barbie dolls are ‘for me’ instead? What if I hadn’t watched those My Little Pony commercials with happy girls having a blast- would I still want to play with MLPs? What if you grew up listening to NOT the FM radio/mainstream music, and listened to eclectic music like Classical or Instrumental? Would your brain not be as clogged up with s*it like lyrics that were full of silly messages? What if I hadn’t been told I was a girl, and that I was supposed to do ‘girly’ things?

What would it be like to discover what you really loved with zero influence from media, society or people? Who would you be now? What kind of person would you have become? If you can think back to when you were a kid, what would you have altered if you weren’t distracted by the agenda that someone else made for you?

If you think about it hard enough and sift through the b.s. that gallivanted through your life, you may be able to shed the illusions of what you thought you were, and come out of the sticky cocoon as a real and true butterfly- YOU.

Love,
L.L.

High Horse In A Glass House

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As some of you know, I live in Hollywood, CA and I work in TV, film and web production on both sides. Both sides meaning in front of the camera and behind the camera.

Just like any other work field, there is a hierarchy of job positions. The totem is very tall and so are the egos usually. Although I have noticed that the super famous people who you work with are usually the nicest!

Anyway, I was on set last week and an actor started asking me if I knew who ‘so and so’ was and if I knew who this actor was. I knew of the projects that this unnamed actor had starred in, but I couldn’t picture their face. You know how it is, there are soooo many actors and names in your head that the match game can be tough.

So the actor who was talking about this other actor who has a great resume, said that he went to one of the Starbucks in Hollywood and saw this unemployed actor, employed at Starbucks now.

The actor I was chatting with said he talked to the now Starbucks Barista and pointed out that the Barista was the former star of such and such projects. He said the unnamed actor played ‘dumb’ about his acting resume and apparently got red faced about the conversation.

“I can’t believe he was working at Starbucks! If I were famous I would never be seen working at Starbucks. I would get a job in an office where I didn’t have to see anybody,” said the guy I was chatting with.

THIS is not okay people. This guy is shaming another person for having a different kind of job. So what- the former actor isn’t starring in a show right now. He’s making ends meet and working a job at Starbucks. Or maybe this actor doesn’t want to act anymore?

I hear people say condescending things like this all of the time. There is nothing wrong with taking a job in the food and beverage industry, janitorial, service industry or any work field that isn’t considered “glamourous.”

Life is tough and a lot of us are in poverty or close to it. We have so many bills and responsibilities, that we have to work our asses off to make ends meet.

Being ‘out of work’ or ‘unemployed’ sucks. Especially when you knock on a thousand doors and you get nothing back for sometimes a year!

Never be ashamed of working anywhere to make your income. Don’t let some person degrade you or disrespect you in your current position. They are ignorant and have their own perceptive distortion disorder.

BE PROUD of yourself and the job you have. BE RESPECTFUL to others servicing you.

If you do your best at whatever job you are doing, then you will feel good about yourself no matter what. Do not let someone else’s perception dictate your perception.

LL

The Truth Is

The truth is…
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You are born and then you are on your way out. You show up naked and alone. Your Mother holds you as you scream and cry in the bright lights. The world is yours, and you are apart of the world.

Your tongue- sharp like a King’s sword. It flips and hums with your voice box, creating vibrations and magic throughout the air. You speak aloud, you look honest, you are honest.

One day, you are able to understand what someone tells you. You then begin to slowly learn the ways of the world.

You’ve been told so many things. You have adjusted to be apart of the earthling dream.

You ask, “who am I?” You begin discovering your senses, your ticks, your urges, your limits, your power… you find you.

In the mirror, you see you. You begin to question yourself who you are again. But this time, it’s different.

That person you thought you knew, was an accumulation of characteristics and thoughts that the human dream projected onto you.

“Who am I really?” you ask.

Your self exploration begins again. You spend every day trying to find the answers. Your ‘clean-up’ protocol mimics a computer. Reprogram, reboot, delete, backspace, defragment, repair…

The maps are rolled out. The windows are open. Rewiring takes place.

Your eyes reopen like they did when you first saw the bright lights in the world.

And this time, Mother Earth and Universe greets you with open arms and you hug spiritually like a tree.

Clarity takes focus.

“I finally see.”

You spend years trying to find more clarity and focus.

You want to uncover the mysteries. Some uncover. Some don’t.

You gravitate toward people who are like you. You finally find your people. Your tribe.

You learn how to be an even better person in every way. You count your blessings. You understand the real definition of love.

You become harder and stronger, yet soft and sensitive.

“It is what it is” you say. “Life really is short, and I know now what I need to live by.”

“I just want to be back in my Mother’s arms. I want to live to love.”
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THE END

The Kicker

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Desperate for attention
Dying to be heard
The little girl is screaming like a baby bird

She doesn’t really see,
She doesn’t really hear,
Except her own voice drawing her near

Mirrors mirrors mirrors
A lonely reflection
Fears fears fears
Sheer rejection

Drain out the inside
Blood bath flood
Your soul is drowning in the mud

Kick kick
Scream scream
Will she be the queen in her dream?

Mirrors mirrors mirrors
A lonely reflection
Fears fears fears
Sheer rejection

Sin nor Saint

Lisa_scarves The silence of our sins

Turns into secrets within

The essence of him

Rolls through me again

Untruth unsettles the heart

Monsters try to pull us apart

Forever means now

Please God show me how

Love you, to love him

I need attention friend

See you

See me

Heaven knows you can’t reach thee

Leave no stone unturned

I tried so many times

How will I get back up and not get burned

I want you

I want it all

Drink the Kool-aid and take the fall

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